I can’t believe I haven’t written in a month! I did not expect to abandon blogging like this but life has been a beehive lately:
- new job
- new home
- new state
- end of my old life
- who am I
- no, really
- because I don’t even know
- constant internal screaming and flailing
- please, someone, I need soup.
In the past I’ve not been someone who handled change well. In fact, that’s probably the boldest understatement I’ve made in a while. I’ve always hated change and I’ve gotten good (like gold medal good) at running from it. Now it seems that I’m pursuing changes and feeling excited aka terrified about them.
Part of the problem with all of this change is that it’s worn me down mentally, making it tough to focus on writing anything. So many times I’ve thought about writing, particularly when I see a mention on Twitter about someone’s new blog post or e-book. I think “what should I write?” Then, instead of sitting down at the computer, I decide that I should be “more productive” and pack, or make a phone call, or confirm an appointment. All things that I should do, to be sure. But they’re also things that give me an excuse not to write, which means that I’ve pushed aside lots of ideas for short stories, poems, essays, etc. in the past few weeks because I’ve decided that they weren’t as important as other things I needed to get done. I ignored the fact that I’m not as happy when I’m not writing. I also ignored the fact that I can’t be trusted to remember a good idea for a story weeks later. I even had a few really interesting dreams that I could’ve shared in the Celebrity Cameos category. Those things are gone now because I didn’t even bother to take notes on what to blog about when I finally got around to it.
So I’m going to make an effort not to go another month without writing here. I’d like to get back to posting a few times a week. Anyone have any suggestions for how to keep writing even when life is taking over? I’m sure the simple solution is to just write, no matter what. But besides that? How do you write when writing makes you feel guilty for neglecting other things?